Friday, April 30, 2010
"Please note that this is an open book exam."
When the lecturer said that we were all O.o until she continued on...
"I mean a closed book exam. Hahahx. Open book? You wish arhhz..."
Lol. Nice.
Yay, no more papers le =D Hip Hip Hurray. =D Time to plan for the holidays =D My 3 months break.
Enjoyed herself today =)
6:26 PM
Looking forward to tomorrow =) hoho...
Maybe I should learn how to talk too. And try something like that. =.= we shall see, whether it works or not.
12:03 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2010
One more paper to go =D And it's holidays. Yay! \(^o^)/
I think I won't be sleeping tonight though. Haven't touched that module yet. GG... AHhahaha...=p
10:11 PM
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Mood: Frustrated
Till exams are over.. =D
I should really stop thinking. When I unconsiciously read your actions, I keep doubting.
10:00 PM
Geraldine feels really happy tonight, despite CS paper killing me today =)
Looking forward to friday, my last paper. =D
12:30 AM
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Dear lecturers,
Don't you usually love to screw with our minds during exams and test? Why the change this time round? You should try to kill everyone with the paper you set then my prayers to the bell curve god will be answered. Well, I guess you are leaving the dirty job to the bell curve god this time round eh? =(
Yours Sincerly,
Requiem
...when you come out of the paper with everyone exclaiming how easy the paper was and you don't like it.
-I think, a promise is hardest to keep when it is made to yourself.
6:13 PM
Monday, April 26, 2010
Yay! MLE is over. OVER! XD Much much more relaxed after MLE. And physics paper was a killer. But this means that everyone( I hope =p) dies together. Hahahx. So I shall pray to the bell curve god =D Towards the end of Physics paper, I surprised myself by trying to test my own skills of crapping using logic. And they still don't make sense to me. =p
Hahhaahx... Survived 2 papers with barely 2 hours of sleep due to insomia. See what MLE and Physics does to me? =X Glad and hope that I don't have to take it next semester. I don't want to go bald like the lecturer =p
Gonna bath and take a nap. 2 down and 3 more to go =D
10:54 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I am
2:08 AM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
And so I managed to get my lazy ass to Loyang point to buy these.
My happiness aka exam package =D
They made me happier just by looking at them already.. All the chocolates =3
Should have bought them earlier... Ahahahhaax... =) HEHEHEHEH.... XD Shall gorge myself later =D
*Hugs myself for buying tibits to pamper myself XD*
1:06 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Screw you. I wonder how you guys choose with such trival questions during the interview man.
There goes my holiday plans. I wouldn't even bother signing up for such a trip if I could go overseas with my friends. That's an if. =X Damn...
Extremely inefficient today. And for the past few days. Sucks. Feels like I haven't completed anything and finals are looming. in a few days. =XX
And I can only stay up till 2am =(( My brain is only awake till then...Sigh... I am so gonna flunk my finals. =((
Depressed. I need chocolates =X
12:01 AM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Junction...
Tell me, which would you choose?
Going for an operation to remove a tiny portion of your liver to stop the cancer cells from spreading and going for chemotherapy to compeletey remove the cancer cells. Needless to say, this would require a substantial amount of will power to pull though, which may or may not suceed.
Or, enjoy the last 6 to 12 months of your life without going through the operation, or so the specialist says. But the cancer cells would no doubt give your body a difficult time, especially during the last moments in your life. So the quality of life you can spend is debatable too.
When faced with such odds and being told to choose, within 3 days, it's like being given the death sentence. Time is ticking away. A surgery like that would no doubt be painful. And chemo therapy after that. =S If you decided to go for the operation, it will take place within a week or 2 latest.
Surely I would encourage the first option, of going for the operation, because it brings hope and the possibility that you will live longer, if you survive that is. But when you think about it in the shoes of the person who's
But at the end of the day, you are the one going under the knife, going through the pain. You are the one who has to steel your mind to want to live on, instead of giving up and wait for death. Trust medical technology I told you. And yet, just now, I wanted to take you away from the pressure, of deciding at that moment. You agreed to go through with the operation, but it was so obvious that you were reluctant, hesistant and worried. You are stubborn. Guess it runs in the family huh?
Steel your mind to go through it. Because it's a battle between your will and death's on the operating table. Dancing on the tight rope...
At the same time, the past weeks events had me thinking. A lot actually. =X Maybe, along the way, I lost part of myself and become a more pessimistic person on the whole..
12:39 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Gosh, I think my previous entries were all so emo... eeeyewww....Hahax... For once, I shall post something happy. \(^o^)/
Yep, Geraldine is really happy today, don't ask why. ^^ like for once in a long while. =) I think I will have lots of stories to hear from my besties after the exams. in 2 weeks time. Something to look forward too =p So make sure you guys tell me everything alrights? and I mean everything. =p hoho...=p
Let's meet up soon, after the exams... =p
Wanna know when the library is filled to the max? When it's 2 weeks before the exam. Come to NUS library and you will see people mugging furiously, trying to cramp all the knowledge into their head. Me included. No FMA brotherhood. For now.=p
Meanwhile, it's time to start mugging and practicing, smart. =S Shall I stay over in school? =X It's kind of dangerous to go back near midnight everyday. =S Yet, it will be troublesome studying in school. The dilemma....
6:31 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Milo, my cheap substitute for chocolates XD
And I thought this was well written... A fanfic my sister found somewhere on this vast internet. So I don't know who the author is. Nevertheless, it's worth a read if you have time =)
------^o^------
Can't I Come With You?
"Why are you going out again? Can't I come with you? I don't want you to go. I want you to stay here with me."
Words of love from an eight-year-old.
I remember how she used to say such things when I'd leave for a span; used to beg to tag along wherever I'd go.
"I'll be good. I won't get into trouble. I promise."
Sometimes her demands would annoy me. Why couldn't she stay with Jaken for a while? I wasn't going anywhere pleasant to do anything fun. Alone, I could finish my tasks more quickly and return sooner, and then see to her.
I tried reasoning, explaining. "But I want to be with you," she insisted.
So she came. Everywhere. To the mountains, through the forests, past the villages, to the capital. Anywhere I went, there she was, right by my side.
Most times I didn't mind, but there were days I ached for moments alone. Sitting quietly to catch a lark's tune, I would strain my ears and a little voice would interrupt.
"Why are you so quiet, m'lord? Why are your ears twitching? Did I tell you about what happened yesterday?"
It was my attention she wanted. My opinion and presence she craved. I was the audience she played to day after day. I became accustomed to her stories, her interruptions. Her fresh observations enriched me. "Since Tenseiga's a life sword, can I get a pet out of this rock? If rain makes things grow, why is Master Jaken so short?"
As she grew older, her questions became less entertaining, more irritating. The early teenage years were accompanied by a litany of demands and complaints. "Why do I have to be home so early? You get to go out late. Don't you trust me?"
Then, most of all, I wished she would be quiet, find something else to do, someone else to listen to her. Why did even the simplest matters have to turn into altercations? Couldn't she just ever leave me alone?
Now, too often, she does.
"How was your day?" I'll inquire of my seventeen-year-old when she returns. "Where did you go? What did you do?"
"I went to a village, met some people. It was no big deal, m'lord. Just hanging out."
Just hanging out. This isn't fair. I want detail. I want texture. I want to know what she does twelve hours a day. I want to hear about her friends, listen to her stories.
"How was your trip, my lord? What did you see? Did you have fun?" she used to ask only a few yeas ago. "What did you do at night? Did you go out? Did you miss me?" The endless questions always answered, always explained.
"Are you going out again tonight?" I find myself saying. Why didn't someone tell me this was going to happen? Everything is reversed. Now I'm the one tagging along, suppressing an "I'll miss you," and wondering, "When are you coming home?"
On some mornings I'll pass her and see she's listening to a lark's song. I know better than to talk. She doesn't want to hear what I have to say. And I understand.
Though underneath that understanding, there's this feeling, this growing awakening: This is how she felt nearly a decade ago. Afraid that something – some song, some activity, some person – would come and take me away from her. He shouldn't like that song more than he likes me, a child thinks. He shouldn't be able to have fun without me. So the child complains and the child imposes. Here I am. Look at me.
Here I am. Look at me, this adult wants to say; but of course I don't. I simply understand a little better why she used to sulk when I was someplace she couldn't be. Finally, after all this time, I am beginning to grasp why children cry when they are left behind.
------^o^------
And you are right. We all know what we have to do, and that we want to indulge in hesitation sometimes. Self pity. Hah. That has a very bad connotation to it but I like it. It kicks me out of my small little world to the reality that we live in. We all have issues in our live and it's inevitable that
Oppx, that sounds so depressing, although it wasn't meant to sound depressing. It just goes to show how much you all mean to me =p heh.
2 more weeks to finals and 3 more to liberation day =) Though I am all jittery inside for finals(because I feel soo unprepared), but the end is near =)
11:00 PM
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Interesting night. On my way home, I met 2 Meridian Junior college school mates, one of whom is from SRJC. Chatted all the way home. It was interesting to hear my friend's story about being a medic and how he hasn't given up on his ambition. I see perseverance in his eyes. =)
It was then that I realized that we all moved on. changed, for better or worse. But everyone leads a different lives now. Guess I should move on too. Resistance is too high from the other party. =p Too much power is dissipated as heat, sadly.
Still, I should stop mulling over it. shouldn't use this as an excuse and slack. Concentrate Geraldine.
11:36 PM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
I wish I don't need sleep.
Lack of confidence
Deep down, I know the answer. But it's a cycle. Can anyone bring a smile to my face?
11:55 PM
3 more weeks to finals...
3 more weeks to finals. Yet I feel so unprepared.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7PYiP8DqFo
Love the lyrics =D Got the video from Faith =D
Homemade Kazoku: Nagareboshi
When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off it's own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star
I'm in my usual park
I can see the night scenery
On the slide
That's been my special seat for years
Whenever I'm worried about something, I come here
Just like then, I'm on my way to my dreams
But unable to fulfil them
"Maybe this is the end of the line"
There are days when I say weak things like that
But every time, I remember
That starry sky where I looked for a shooting star
The wish I made when I was little
Hasn't changed even now
When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off it's own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star
Hiding out in the schoolyard at night with my mates
We climbed the wire netting
The field seemed to have a different face than during the day
We headed for our sea called the pool
We didn't have swimming trunks, so we were all stark naked
Someone jumped in with a strange yell
The splash echoed through the night
"After him!" Everyone else piled in
We floated gently, looking up at the sky
Looked at the stars in front of us, and talked about heaps of dreams
And looked for that shooting star
When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off it's own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star
Looking up at the sky, there are countless stars
The same number now that there was years ago
My dreams are endless and crazy
Incredibly bright, like that star
Hey! If you keep hanging your head like that
You won't even be able to see the things you can see
Look up at the sky, keep your head up!!
Hey! What do you think of the sky you see?
Someday, like that shining star
I wanna shine
When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off it's own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star
Emotions are troublesome... Ahhh..so distracting... The urge to watch FMA Brotherhood. =p It's awesome XD Even better than the first season. and the first season was so awesome already ^_^
Nooo.... cannot watch >.< and I am sooo unprepared for finals. Uncertainity. Insecurity of the brothers. Hahax. Well depicted. =D The way the author brings out that scene. And Roy Mustang is sooo cool. He plays it the smart way XD
12:04 AM