Wednesday, February 20, 2008

The days passed by hastily and the end of the week is drawing near. Soon, it will be the week previously, followed by march "holidays" with the march block test looming by dangerously, preparing to "ambush" students who poorly prepared. It is just a daily cycle of chasing after tutorials, assignments and tests, living day by day to me. I keep telling myself that I will start revising soon and till now, I haven't even started.

Since recently, I have been feeling the stress from both my relatives and my expectations to perform in the exams. I definitely do not want to undergo midyear experience of "Meet the Parents session" (more like embarrass the student session) again, where I was forced to swallow the condensing attitudes from one of my "caring" teacher. I remember being the first student nervously waiting for the teachers to be ready to give constructive criticisms which they did. It was horrible. the 45 minutes session or so was a test of my endurance and pride. I was always being looked at in that manner by them as a product of failure. It is really frustrating and can serve to break you down.

Back then, I was only able to keep my sanity by
indulging in my hobbies from time to time and through Biz Club activities. The familiarity with my family members also helped. I used to be able to depend on these two supports but not now. The first due to exhaustion and the later one of the condescending look again, not from the members, but that of a the teacher. Perhaps I'm embarrassed, annoyed at first since that incident happened, but I do not see the need to go into further details. So don't ask me. A simple encouragement will do. =)

I feel so out of touch with reality lately. I don't want to fear waking up every morning knowing that it's a new day....

Ps. Sorry that this entry is so pessimistic. It helped me assuage my fears though. =)

6:15 PM

Thursday, February 14, 2008 Chocolates, softs toys and roses...

This year, Valentine's Day holds a new meaning for me. It's the first time that this day is celebrated on such a big scale. Be it the giver or the receiver, the rosy feeling of being treasured when giving and receiving is really pleasant. Also, this year was the first time I ever received roses. ^^ Thank you everyone for your gifts. They really made my day. =)

It started out with me giving out chocolates to mainly S207 peeps early in the morning. I actually had 2 bags worth of present, but I'm glad I managed to cut it down to 1 bag later on. hahax. I should have written some note attached to those chocolates. Unfortunately, I didn't have the time. I did managed to rush out some last minute note though and I will probably do some additional notes over the weekend and give them out on monday. I hope it's not too late.

The first lesson(P.E) was a bummer. Imagine giving out gifts when you are sweaty...hahax, maybe I'm exaggerating, but when I think of all the FATS I'm going to lose, I was really happy. I saw balloons and gift bags everywhere. ^^

Throughout the day, I wasn't paying attention during lessons. I was busy thinking of all the gift cards that I was halfway through and gifts that are not given out yet. hahax. I received some unexpected gifts though, and I was really happy. I received pink, red and white roses, each stalk given by different people.^^ I hope they survive for more than 3 days.

Towards the endof the day, we(biz club) tried to sell clear the flowers. The sunflowers were the worst, with some of the flowers being "botak". The roses, still look fresh, in some perspective. There were practically more than 4 dozen of roses left. Then, I had to rush home to mug for physics test.


>=( It really sucks. Of all days, it had to be after valentine's day. Can't they empathize with poor meridians who need a break from all that studying they've done? Also, for people like me who burnt the night preparing gifts and tutorials? There are some who should have gone out for dinner too. Damn...I doubt anything really got into my head 'coz i was so jaded. I didn't really understand the topics tested either. I hate the idea of failing tests again and the teachers would so kindly put up the results on the notice board, as if to shame those who failed. I hope I would at least get an average result.
8:30 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I wanted to take a little break from all the work so I went blog hopping. Seems like most of the people I know are going to buy valentine's day present. I would love to buy some presents for my friends during valentine's day, but till now, I haven't spent a single cent on buying the present.

Should I buy or not... hahax, I feel a little reluctant to part with my money but I will be buying chocolates for some of my good friends. ^^ I need to go shopping tomorrow provided that I'm not lazy. =p Will someone go with me? xD

8:37 PM

Give me more time...

It's already Sunday 1.14 am. Much as I feel like procrastinating yet again, I shall write this post for peeps like Hayden, Boey and Zimin :D.

We can really learn economics during Chinese New Year, since the amount of money we get represents the economy and ties between your relatives. ANd each year, the amount of money I receive gradually decrease! =(

This year, I was $272 richer short of $23+ to the year before. What does this show? It shows that either the economy is not doing very well or that you have lesser relatives to visit each year... In mine case, it was both.

Still, it's almost the same every year, with CHOCOLATES and candies around - goodies that would definitely add to the needle of that weighing scale. I'm glad that we do not need to take height and weight after chinese new year. I also drank wine on the 1st and 3rd day (today) of Chinese new year. The alcohol tolerance was low though, 14.1% and 13% on the different days respectively. I can't drink! My red went all red after just 1 small glass of it. =(

Btw, I wore skirts on all 3 days. =D And that all my relatives comment on that, since i don't wear skirt usually because it is troublesome. =p The lazy syndrome. hahax.

The first day was the usual visits to lesser relatives house, yesterday to my "distant" cousin house and my house. Finally, today marks the last day of new year visiting for me! Anymore days and I would die from overload from the work that is waiting for me to date them xD.

Time keeps ticking away and before you know it, you haven't done any work at all. Also, March Block Test is coming which equates to more revision on last year work.

If only there was 48 hours a day....

Look at the people around you revising when you relax, and you realise that you need to work hard. It's the A levels year afterall and no one wants to be left behind. I certainly don't =/ Saying that, you can't blame me for not being consistent in my post right? =p

P.s My nose keeps running! I have to eat more medicine and see the doctor again! =(
1:13 AM