That which lingers - the Missing Scene

The sweat from the jog just now drives me with so much adrenaline, and... satisfaction. I finally managed to drag myself out of the house and to the park, for a good exercise. Now I feel much fitter with a clearer mind. I jogged 6 + 1.25(of cooling down). Yay! I hope that will shed off the extra kilograms of fats I stuffed myself silly over Chinese New Year.

My colleague brought a dart board to the office a few days ago, but we starting playing today during lunch break. I can't seem to hit within the outer rim though, and that's bad since it will mean that I can't challenge Michael and Jack. =( Hahax, they taught me a few things about playing with darts today, like how to throw and rules of the game. You start with 301 points first and only after hitting within the outer rim, you will then be allowed to minus away the points that you earn from hitting the board. In other words, the first to win will be the one who loses all his points. There's a catch though: just as you start with hitting within the outer ring, you will also have to end with hitting anywhere within the outer ring. Cool huh? Now I have something to do whenever I reach the office early. Much as my aiming sucks, I had fun practicing with aiming for the outer rim and the bulls eye. Now I feel like getting one. I have to make sure that I play it at someplace with cardboard boxes though, or the walls will be full of holes. Hahax, anyone have any idea where to get them?

and so the dreaded time is drawing closer...

I just had to re-type this entire entry because I was too hasty the clicking of the mouse. A habit I picked up during my work as an admin perhaps?

Anyways, I'm pass that emotional, all melancholic mood of mine. I've learnt to brush it aside in one side of my emotional drawers. That aside, cheer for me today, because I got my pay today. Yay! =D I have to admit that I was initially disappointed with the amount that I got since I expected more. Thanks to starting work on 6th Jan, I got 3 days of pay deducted since 1st Jan is considered a working day. Weird you ask? Yeah, coz you see, I was not officially an employee then, so 1st Jan is considered a working day although it should be, and rightfully, a public and PAID holiday.

At least it's better than the sales job during the Job Orientation. For that particular job, after a month of probation(even the duration is questionable), I will get to do event planning for companies that intends to market and promote itself or its goods to the products. Thinking that I had finally found a job that I would like, I jumped on the bandwagon. Sadly to say, i couldn't even take one day of Sales(direct marketing to the people in the public), much less a month. Oh yes, there's no stall so you will have to carry the goods(whatever you are selling) to the public. I must say, sales truly shows a person's behavaviour and shapes your character, be it perseverance, tolerence, being glib tongued or even set a higher benchmark for the tolerence of rejection. Having said that, I think I learn all, or at least some of the intrapersonal skills in that 1 entire day.

That aside, I guess many are wondering why I'm still in the red despite getting my pay. I promised myself that when I started working, I would pay for my lunch(food) expenses and transport fees myself. Other than that, there are many neccessary things to be spent on, like giving my parents and grandparents some money as a token of appreciation. Having seen my parents face light up with joy fills me with a warm and fuzzy feeling of pride inside =D I can't wait to see a smile on my grandparents face! Oh ya, not forgetting my sisters gifts and birthday presents too. And so that's where all my money went. Gosh, look, it's getting late now. I guess I will be going to sleep soon, and wake up to go to work tomorrow.

Lots of things happened in the past week, my 2nd week since work. And I would have to say, I'm lucky, lucky that I seen this kind of thing in this company. If it was in other company, I wouldn't be able to survive. I will take it as a learning experience bah... I will and also correct this attitude of mine.


Gahh! Somehow, I seem to feel very dissatisfied most of the time. And I unconsciously built a wall around myself.. =( This is bad... But I will break this wall down.

Like all the others students after A levels, I naturally start out looking for a job, to make better use of my free time. Lately, being cooped up in the office, working as a data entry during the rigid hours set me thinking, that perhaps I would be better off using my time elsewhere. What I'm doing now is what I used to scorn arrogantly, working for money instead of the other way round. Unfortunately, I have neither the skills nor the intelligence(at least not yet) to do the latter. I have so much more to learn, but not the time to do so now. Perhaps this calls for a change in lifestyle?

Then there is the "what next" issue. Assuming that I do so badly that I'm not able to enter into the course of my choice, or even the university, what next? Opt for retaking A levels entirely(full/part-time), or perhaps go to SIM for a part time degree while working. Oh yes, not forgetting the poly route into the Business Finance course and henceforth waste the 2 years in JC. At least it's better than wasting my whole life. What if I do get into the university? Do I really want to take the business and finance course? I could also consider design, computer course etc..

I'm also rather keen to take on this pet project that could well generate more "income" for me. No matter how much I calculate, it doesn't seem to be worthwhile to invest my time and money in it. There are just too many loopholes that I must cover. We'll see. For now, I will stand back and try to exercise patience over the impatience in achieving my overarching "impertinent" goal.

I used to wish I could grow up faster, but now I'm wishing that time would pass more slowly to give me more time to draw up some achievements in my life.

Ah~ I'm so gleeful now... A big thank you to mellylemon for translating and editing "The One" so diligently. Lou Shang and Lele's aunt are so compatible. lala~ Can't believe that I can get so happy over manga characters. Lolx. But I can't help it. ((><))

And yupx, despite all the economic downturn and retrenchment going on, let's hope that next year will be a better year. Though it may not neccessarily be better, since reality is often cruel. Being humans, we will still somehow grasp that strand of hope tightly.

Anyways, it's time for my birthay updates! Did I tell you that my birthday is on 27th December? =p Remember that important day okay? hehe. Let's see, the day before, on 26th Dec, I was out celebrating with Wenhui, Sing Huey and Fadz. Thanks for spending my birthday with me. And the present? I will update the photos on this blog later. Hehe.

Intially, we wanted to go bowling, but since the queue was so long, we decided against it considering that there were 26 people in front of us, waiting. So it was arcade instead at Ehub. Dang, I should have brought my nebo card & those coupons that came with it. I could get a $10 free play value had I brought the card.haha. Apparently my coordination of limbs sucks. I tried playing the "para-para", desperately trying to step on the arrows with my legs. Next up was the ball throwing from aiming at the screen to the hoops with basketball. Gosh, afterwards I got a muscle cramp the next day.

Did I mention the attire I was in? It was a formal wear since I had 2 interviews that day. Can you imagine a person wearing so formally playing in the arcade? I bet I attracted a lot of stares, but who cares? I so delightful now that I'm grinning as I'm typing this entry.Don't worry, I have been a good girl except on christmas when I tried some wine together with my cousins. =p Okay, so I'm ranting now.

Thank you all for the birthday wishes I received, especially the one in 5 different languages on my special day. ^^ I guess dictionary.com is an effective of learning a new language. I spent the day with Hui Li, Quan Heng and Jeremy and at night with my family. We were supposed to meet at 8am but the guys were late for one hour! Tsk tsk. But it gave me some private time for gossiping(=p) with Hui Li so it didn't feel like an hour. When the guys finally turned up, we hopped on bus 89 and off to Changi Beach. The morning breeze is not as fantastic as the night one. I really wanted to go there in the evening though, but since "Someone" had to work, it can't be helped. =( Like excited kids, we tackled the swing first before playing the freezebie. Argh, it's tough to control the direction of the freezebie. Afterwards, it was a bus ride to Simei followed by an Mrt train ride all the way to City Hall to the arcade again. There, we got to watch "someone" para-para and apprently he enjoyed it a lot. ;) Lunch was at New York. The serving size was relatively big and we had free cotton candy that day! I'll upload the pictures later on.

So basically, that would conclude the days I had so far. It's nearly 2, so I better turn in soon... GooD nIgHt!