Running, running, running...

It feels strange to be happy, satisfied and contented after the bouts of depression that came in waves after semester started. Maybe it's the good laugh I had after watching the Noose yesterday, or the more interaction I had with my family members.

when you haven't been the smartest all along...

You find that you have no one to turn to when you want to ask questions.

Nvm, there is always the Teaching Assistant(TA) and consultations slots to help.

But I wish, that I am just a little smarter, so that I don't need to approach anyone for help.

Because overtime, I am afraid that my friends would think that I am just making use of them. =X when nope, that's not it.

And now, when I wanna ask questions, I find myself pai seh to ask when it wasn't like that last time. But thanks to those who helped me out! =D

Do more questions and maybe you will see the pattern to answering questions. But when physics and programming isn't intuitive anymore....

Speaking of which, my nose bled 3 times today. Too heaty I guess, from all the tidbits, seafood and new year tidbits I gorged. I don't regret it though =p Hahax. Just hope that I don't fall sick before the mid terms =D

Sighhh... Persevere.

Yay, I finally finished watching Princess and The frog. \(^o^)/A Disney classic where the characters leave happily ever after. Fairytales may be simplified, but they show children happy endings do exist and fairytales do come true. Wouldn't it be dreary if children of the future grow up in this stressful society being depressing and all? Not that being depressing is bad, it's just that, a little hope would make things all the more brighter and give people the motivation and drive to pursue their dreams. =)

Fairytales aside, my CNY week has been a hectic one. From lunar new year, there was the reunion dinner at grandma's house, to 14th Feb, Chu yi and Valentine's day! Haha. To cut things short, I have been visiting everyday, to other people's house or people visiting my house, except celebrating my youngest sister's birthday on 17th. So it's really hectic, but fun =D

But then, exams and schools are evil. They force you to cut your CNY holiday short and study by putting exams after holidays. They cut you from your friends, family and loved ones. Anyone wants to break this misconception I have? =) group study anyone? =p

Andrew showed me a site for MLE from Cambridge. The way they teach seems way better than some of the lecturers at *cough* my school. Hahax. It's Cambridge after all. NUS teach you the meaning of self study and "referencing", if you get what I mean.

Well, before my nightmare eats up my reality and undergo points defects through substitutional atoms process (okayyy, I am crazy. But more over physics and C++ Programming, oppx, I mean Data Structures and Algorithm. Sounds chim right? =p It's meant to, but it doesn't make me feel any smarter taking that module. =x), I better get back to studying.

I am starting to wonder... Do happy endings exist?

They say hard work pays off.

It better be true because I am starting to work hard now. No more "what's the use of working hard if at the end, I don't get the results? I might be better off not working hard." Of course, there is the part on working smart too. But, a certain threshold of studying has to take place before you can work smart.

Heh. I met Maurice today, the photographer from Exoro 2 years back. Hahax. =D It was interesting talking to him, about business and all. It's been a long time since I talked to a like minded person with similar interest in programming. =D and what he said was true.

"I may not be good in studies, but I believe that I am good in other things. =D"

Took the words right out of my mouth. Totally. Maybe I should start joining NUS Bingo next sememster actively. Life is getting... depressing. It will keep my mind from thinking about stuff and enter into the nothing box.Speaking of which, I would need a cap of 3.50 to study the syallabus in Stanford if I want to go to Sillician Valley. Oh joy.

So over the weekends, I am going to rush through the assignments, readings and chapters from MLE textbook. And of course, spare some time studying for Nation Building Test next week. I realise that I should divide and conquer. Handling too many things at once is, disruptive. Sit In lab today took a load off my back. I shall worry about it after Chinese New Year. The result, well, at least it's compilable. I am not going to think about results. Whatever the case, I am going to try to get whatever work I have done before Cny. So I get celebrate it and get on with studying that week.